The one person I should be able to trust...........

....................has on occasion at her convenience, rejected her own blood. For what reason on this Earth does she have to justify abandoning her role and responsibilty to her child(ren)? I couldn't even begin to understand the thought or feelings that would surface to have a parent behave in such a way. The unhealthiness of the individual who can act on this over and over through time, without remorse or change.......... is quite disturbing. I would not want such an individual who doesn't know love, compassion, patience, acceptance and understanding to coexist amongst my family or myself. What would she have to offer other then darkness, rejection, pain and negativity?  I will not allow someone so hung up on trying to navigate my course in life, to treat me in such a way. I have done nothing else but give of myself, be myself and love this person all my life. She doesn't deserve or appreciate that, I have nothing else here to give. I don't believe you ever wanted me to have any love, joy or success in my life. Despite your failings of trying to control me, I have managed to find, possess and claim these blessings on my own........for myself. Knowing this, ask yourself did you get what you wanted? Do you have what you want? Do you believe you know best? I can say when I go to rest my head at night, THAT I DO!