............her to WAKE UP! Just when I thought my daughter's lifestyle of "doing nothing" couldn't get worse, she is up at all hours of the night and sleeps half of the day away. Her boyfriend must work nights?! But even so he must be busy working in order to still have a job. It is so hard, actually heartbreaking to go throughout my day with that puriferral view of my daughter "doing nothing." She graduated 4 months ago and most of her friends are working, going to school or both. It's very difficult to motivate a child who is still very much a child and doesn't like the responsibilities that come with or take to be a grown up. In many ways she just wants to be taken care of. I think I have failed her in that way. Raising a single child on my own for many years, just to get busy with other things like a husband and another child. I think she is still 10, waiting for her mother to return without her added busy-ness and responsibility. I think she'll be waiting for a long time. I have set aside time for her, I have tried to reach her in different ways and I have been unsuccessful. She is cooperative for awhile and soon looses interest in whatever time or activity I have commited to. I try to do something to promote physical activity or provide a window to have heart-to-hearts. She is 18, in her own little world and I mean "little."
When I was her age I had worked since I was 16, helped babysit/raise my two younger siblings and couldn't wait to start my life doing what I wanted without my mother's thumb on everything that I showed interest in. Self-expression was not permitted and/or supported. When that's all I want for my daughter. Spread her wings and make her dreams and aspirations come true. For her to see that her relationships aren't all of her world but just a big perk in her world. I just want to scream at the top of my lungs.........WAKE UP!!!!!!
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