I just wrote a message to someone I admire. I'm ten years too late in discovering what I wanted to do for a living. But when I was living out my interests and starting to change my image, I was a little apprehensive. Not from an inner doubt did I slowly reveal this deep inner desire. Just how to go about making it a reality, a lifestyle is why it seemed to overwhelm me. There was a world out there that I fit in and jumping into it was all I wanted to do. But no one currently in my life would of followed me or help me get there. Maybe that's why it was so scary in a sense. If I cut my bangs like Bettie Page, get tattoos, piercings and go to car shows will it just take on a life of it's own. Could I sport the vintage hairstyles and clothing? Could I go as far as go-go dancer and pin up girl? How big is that world in the year 2000? There is an innocense of that 50's era that I have always wanted to be a part of, I have always respected and admired. Would that be relived in me? I wanted so much to make it real for me.
Deep down I feel I have missed out on me, even though I am pretty happy where I am. I just will always wonder.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
You can't change circumstances, you can't change people but you CAN change your attitude.
I am currently reading this book that is suppose to help me understand why men and women act the way they do. Other then hearing the usual differences like, "men are like waffles and women are like spaghetti," I have discovered, I have a new respect for women!
With the many variables that can make women feel stressed, depressed and/or overwhelmed, there is suppose to be an equal amount of options to help us combat these feelings. Get informed, get a grip, get in sync and get stabilized, sounds easier said then done. Given the proper time, I can see where that would be helpful, instead of just hopeful. Before I give you some insight on what I'm reading............
Note-The only time a woman is usually stable emotionally is at the very beginning of life, when we are too young to appreciate it and at the end of life when we are too old to do much with it.
When PMS, pregnancy, perimenopause, or menopause aren't in play, we're fighting off depression, dealing with the drastic changes that come with childbearing, (with each child) coping with sleep deprivation, supporting the fragile male ego, dealing with a crisis, holding together some sort of marriage, arguing with mother(s) trying to convince her that we have it under control, etc. Just when we think we have some stability, life is always thrusting us into another rollercoaster of change that dominates our emotions.
I have been introduced to another world it seems. I'm always joking about pulling my hair out with the dealings of a toddler boy and the hormones of a teenage girl, when my husband was out of work. Yet again life gives me a break cause both of my kids are not in school and my husband most the time is pretty wonderful, he's working now. Just when I think things are starting to get back on track, I start laughing thinking about how funny it would be to go through menopause, while my husband goes through his midlife. No, I'm good. Getting back............
I hear a lot of myself in my friends with their families. The common denominator is discontent. We all want to feel significant, that were making a difference. We want to express beauty in everything we do. But especially, we find beauty in simple things. Like a leisurely drawn bath with bubbles and scented candles, sitting with a book or magazine without scouting the edges of the pages for the things that need to get done. Having the husband or kids help on the weekend with kitchen duty or cooking dinner. These are beautiful things.
The best thing women can do for themselves is TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELVES. For a minute stop fussing over everyone else and do something you like......quilt-free. Take time that you need to eat properly, sleep properly, wind down properly from your day and get out once a week. With your husband, maybe by yourself. That is a choice you have to make--to make time with you, for you. When things are overwhelming you which they will, don't forget that you are not alone. Many women through the ages feel what you feel. We will find strength in each other.
With the many variables that can make women feel stressed, depressed and/or overwhelmed, there is suppose to be an equal amount of options to help us combat these feelings. Get informed, get a grip, get in sync and get stabilized, sounds easier said then done. Given the proper time, I can see where that would be helpful, instead of just hopeful. Before I give you some insight on what I'm reading............
Note-The only time a woman is usually stable emotionally is at the very beginning of life, when we are too young to appreciate it and at the end of life when we are too old to do much with it.
When PMS, pregnancy, perimenopause, or menopause aren't in play, we're fighting off depression, dealing with the drastic changes that come with childbearing, (with each child) coping with sleep deprivation, supporting the fragile male ego, dealing with a crisis, holding together some sort of marriage, arguing with mother(s) trying to convince her that we have it under control, etc. Just when we think we have some stability, life is always thrusting us into another rollercoaster of change that dominates our emotions.
I have been introduced to another world it seems. I'm always joking about pulling my hair out with the dealings of a toddler boy and the hormones of a teenage girl, when my husband was out of work. Yet again life gives me a break cause both of my kids are not in school and my husband most the time is pretty wonderful, he's working now. Just when I think things are starting to get back on track, I start laughing thinking about how funny it would be to go through menopause, while my husband goes through his midlife. No, I'm good. Getting back............
I hear a lot of myself in my friends with their families. The common denominator is discontent. We all want to feel significant, that were making a difference. We want to express beauty in everything we do. But especially, we find beauty in simple things. Like a leisurely drawn bath with bubbles and scented candles, sitting with a book or magazine without scouting the edges of the pages for the things that need to get done. Having the husband or kids help on the weekend with kitchen duty or cooking dinner. These are beautiful things.
The best thing women can do for themselves is TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELVES. For a minute stop fussing over everyone else and do something you like......quilt-free. Take time that you need to eat properly, sleep properly, wind down properly from your day and get out once a week. With your husband, maybe by yourself. That is a choice you have to make--to make time with you, for you. When things are overwhelming you which they will, don't forget that you are not alone. Many women through the ages feel what you feel. We will find strength in each other.
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